It's really hard living with an invisible illness. One where you try to explain it to healthy folks, and you just get grimaces in response. Most people have been fortunate in that they haven't had to struggle with disabling diseases for the majority of their lives. I'm not stating here that this means that I'm … Continue reading I’m REALLY tired of being tired
I've realized recently that I enjoy writing poems. Not necessarily Haiku, but I'm open. Though I feel I'm a decent writer, something about poetry is daunting. I can't imagine getting to a place where I'm confident enough, and accomplished enough as a writer, to call myself a poet. I remember in college Literature, trying to … Continue reading Please, not a Hallmark poem!
Yesterday morning, my friend dropped me off early at the surgeon's office. They had requested that I be there 15 minutes before my appointment. I had listened to a guided meditation for 20 minutes beforehand, and had taken a half of a Klonopin tablet. I was fairly calm, considering I'd be cut open without an … Continue reading Minor Surgery?
When I create a successful painting, it reminds me of building a meaningful life. Maybe that sounds strange, but there are some parallels. As with life, when I'm working with paint on a canvas, a lot of experimentation occurs. One idea might shine, once expressed, while another can flop. I often go over and over … Continue reading Building a meaningful life
I saw my surgeon yesterday. Just had to share the news. While he doesn't know what the lump is-quite rare for a doc to admit, he doesn't believe that it's cancer! Even if it is, it's well encapsulated, which means it will be removed with ease, and has not spread to other parts of my … Continue reading It Seems I’m Not Dying(yet)
It is funny how it seems there will always be time left, to write that book, or plant those Peonies, or publish the children's book. The one that you've written, and rewritten, dozens of times, but are still not happy with. It's funny how everything appears much crisper, the beauty jumping out at … Continue reading It is funny
It's amazing how nonchalant a doctor can be, when you discover that a lump is growing inside of your body, and that you are developing new symptoms. You have a lump on your abdomen? You are experiencing feelings of pressure and discomfort across the left side of your ribs? Don't you worry about it, my … Continue reading Waiting Is the Worst