I've always needed to express myself. My feelings crash continuously like the waves of the ocean. Many highs and lows smacking me around. I begin to implode, as soon as I stop communicating my thoughts.
I started drawing when I was a small child, and began writing a bit later. I got very sick as a young person, and spent most of my young adult life disabled by chronic illness. My health history has shaped who I am, and transformed my perspective on life.
I've never been good at hiding my feelings. For that matter, I can't hide my opinions of people who annoy me, either.
I don't suppose this will ever change. I will probably just get more difficult, cranky, and ornery as I age...