When we are feeling bleak, and weighed down by our own pains and realities, it can be exceptionally difficult to find meaning in our lives.
Most people don’t understand what kind of courage and fortitude is needed when you’re living through day after day of depression.
Lately, it’s felt easier for me to sleep, and avoid life, then it has been for me to get myself up early, dressed, and painting(or writing).
Depression is a very powerful adversary. Lately I’ve been drawing on every part of myself, to keep my chin from dropping to my chest.
I think it’s important to have a list written up and available, for times like these. Somehow, it’s nearly impossible to remember what it was that inspired me, when I was in a better place, when I’m in a period where I feel swallowed up by darkness.
Once I can find the stamina and the will to draw or paint, after awhile I tend to enjoy it. But it’s a true challenge, that I’m not always able to acheive.
Right now, I’m listening to a You Tube video of soothing music, with dolphins calling to each other in the background. My pain hasn’t gone away, but it can be eased by music, truly funny movies, books that create new worlds for me, and painting or drawing.
It also helps to avoid being perpetually isolated, when possible.
What helps you to feel better when you’re in your darkest of places?