In The Clear

blue skies at the beach in Bandon, Oregon

I found out yesterday that both of my biopsies came back negative. Whoo hoo! Definitely a cause for celebration.

In one of them, the cells, though they aren’t cancerous, are proliferating too quickly. So, I’m being sent to a surgeon to discuss this. Hopefully it will just be something that needs to be watched, rather than cut out.

I went to my Jewish temple this morning, and a young woman was becoming a Bat Mitzvah. 13 is the traditional age for this process. It involves learning to read Hebrew, learning several paragraphs from Torah, which is the 5 books of Moses, writing and reading an essay on your portion, and more.

I’ve been to several Bat Mitzvah ceremonies in the past couple of months, sort of unexpectedly.

I haven’t known these girls, I’ve just gone to Saturday services, and it has ended up that there are many young women becoming Bat Mitzvah’s this summer.

I am beginning to get very nervous about my own. I have just over a month to learn my Hebrew  with what’s called a Trope, or melody. It has to be chanted, not just said.

I have gone off in several different directions concerning my essay on the subject of my Torah portion, which involves a conversation between G-d, and Moses.

In general I’m feeling like my brain isn’t working as well as I’d like it too, but I have the excuse of having been preoccupied with health stuff over the past month. Hopefully now that I’m in the clear in regards to cancer, I’ll be better able to focus.

It just feels like since I returned from Mexico about 6 months ago, I’ve been dealing with one health issue following the next. I’ve felt very distracted.

Over the next month I’m going to do my very best to get everything done for my Bat Mitzvah, in a way that is meaningful to me.

It can be easy to get caught up in the final presentation, rather than in the process.

Anyway, at least I know that I’ll be surrounded by people who care about me, so no one will heckle me, if I make a mistake!


  1. I’ve never been to a Bat Mitzvah, and don’t know too much of what’s involved, but I know you will be as ready as you can be when the time comes. You’ve had so much on and even know there’s that question mark over what will happen with the proliferating cells, as you say hopefully it’s a case of keeping an eye on things. So go easy on yourself, you’ve been through the wringer. For now, celebrate – that’s amazing news and I’m so glad the results came back clear!!  ♥🌷
    Caz xx

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