In a Quiet Space

I’m staying in a lovely cottage on the Oregon Coast. I got here last night.

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studio cottage in Bandon OR

The drive is 3 and one half hours, so I was damned past exhausted, when I arrived. As tired as I was, I had to admit that the space is darling. So much attention to details. Very quiet. I can hear my mind working, in this spot.

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Bedroom in cottage with comforter cover I want to take home!

I just had to get away from the smoke. At some level, as is often the case, I also wanted to get away from myself, and my worries. Doesn’t seem to work overly well!

I still have not heard about my biopsy results. I’m starting to get annoyed. I was told 2-4 days, and it’s been 4 days. I called the doctor’s office Tuesday, and they promised they’d call me once they arrived, but I’m feeling tempted to call again.

It’s under 60 degrees out, so I’m not sure how motivated I am to go to the beach.

I might just spend time inside resting, writing, and meditating. It is very peaceful here, which gives me the ability to tune into myself more clearly.

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view from kitchen table where I’m sitting

Part of me feels it would be a shame to come this far without seeing the ocean. Part of me doesn’t care.

I’m considering painting outside, but I will have to get everything set up so I don’t get paint on anything. I’ll also likely need to wear my parka, which doesn’t enhance flowing arm movements.

I don’t mean to complain. I know I’m fortunate to be in such a lovely space, away from the smoke of Ashland.

Sometimes, when I’m in a state of inner turmoil, it becomes more apparent to me when my surroundings are peaceful and quiet.

I suppose this is the case right now.

Oh well. I’ll do my best to enjoy my solitude and the natural beauty here.

Since that is all I really can do.

4 Comments

  1. This looks like a wonderful place to get away, from the smoke but also the everyday ‘buzz’ and junk that can surround us and our minds. Do whatever YOU want to do. Staying in to rest, relax and enjoy the peacefulness sounds perfect to me. If you want to go out, then do, but the choices are your so don’t feel bad about not doing something or as though there are things you ‘should’ do while you’re there. I’d also be frustrated about lack of results. I guess for the weekend you just try to put it at the back of your mind (easier said than done) knowing you can’t do anything about it, and try again on Monday to call them. In the mean time, focus on yourself and on what will make you happy and relaxed for the weekend 🙂
    xxxx

  2. It was nice. Would have liked to stay the whole weekend, but wasn’t able to. It was really perfect, though I was feeling somewhat lonely. You know how hard it is to maintain friendships when you are dealing with a chronic illness. It can be a strain being alone so often. Thanks for all of your support and truly helpful and thoughtful comments. W

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